Everyone’s digging for victory and I’m over here digging for therapy.
Depression is something that’s becoming more and more common these days or should I say more widely accepted. I myself have suffered depression on and off since my early teens for many different reasons, I was bullied growing up, my parents split up, I was in an unhappy relationship, I split with said relationship, I got made redundant from my best job, I was a struggling single mum, I didn’t like my new job, were some of the reasons, but one of the main factors is myself. I over think things and sometimes very negatively. I say hurtful things to myself or create negative scenarios in my head, that cause a fear. It is something I’m working on.
I don’t take medication for my depression and I’m not against people who do, I choose not to because I have an addictive personality. So I choose to medicate my illness through gardening.
It’s not easy suffering from depression, people say or think well why can’t you just be positive and happy or do something about it. “Yeah Einstein don’t you think we already know that”…… it’s like a plague of bad thoughts and emotion you can’t just shrug off and half the time it’s like walking around in a fog and before you even realise it you’re in the thick of it and can’t see your way out, even if the way out it’s right there in front of you.
So back to my medication, GARDENING, no matter how shitty I feel, I can go to the allotment or out into my garden and sometimes be it in my pajamas and potter around. When I get my hands stuck in the muck and this thing happens where my plagued thoughts just disappear, not completely but for that moment when I’m working the earth, connecting with nature, the bugs, bees and plants I’m FREE from stress and worry. I’m happy again.
It uplifts me and gives me hope. I never get jaded gardening and the excitement and joy I get from what’s going to happen next and watching something grow and transform and every time differently brings me this proud almost motherly feeling. It gives me this happiness and a little fuzzy feeling of accomplishment.
The result is idyllic beauty and almost sunny blue skies in my mind instead of a thick fog, I know the fog will never fully disappear but as long as I keep gardening with passion, the fog will lift!
Thank you for reading, I would love to hear how gardening has helped you?
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